Amp is a bad idea

So it's almost 2:30 am and I have to be up in three and a half hours. My brain is going a hundred miles per hour, but at least the jitters stopped. I can't sleep so i've got so much time to think. The last few weeks have been a lot of trials and testing of my sanity and patience and love and commitment.

 I miss Matt. I can't wait for him to be home.

 I miss my Derp. Since my accident, I haven't been out as much as I should. In my defense, I hurt just from brushing and it hasn't stopped raining long enough since Christmas to dry anything out. He is losing muscle. I miss riding so much. I can't wait to be all healed up so that I can ride again. My body feels weak. I feel like I have no muscles and what little ones I do have turned to mush. I feel like a blob.

Binxy got really sick. I had to take him to the ER vet on Christmas. He had bladder stones. After a lofty ER bill and an additional Vet bill we decided he had to get the bladder stones removed or he could get a blockage. So we did that last friday ::looks at cobwebs in wallet:: but it was so worth it. He is just about back to normal. Messing with the other cats, being Binxy. He is a bit extra cuddly and he sleeps a lot but I think that is partly because he is healing and because of the anti-biotics. But my lovebug is healthy again. I mean, he's still fat but he's got a brand new belly button! See below:

 In a more positive light, I stocked up on supplements for the boys so we should be good for a few months. Speaking of which, I could be mixing those right now instead of typing this. . . .

 I cannot even begin to explain how much I love Chia. Seriously, it's amazing stuff and has so many good properties! It's the anal leakage stopperator!

 I have trying out the Dynamite vitamins and Trimins along with the Megabotanicals. I am trying to figure out what is going to make me feel best and with being a Dynamite Distributor, I feel it's somewhat hypocritical of me to use other brands. I have seen what they can do to horses, I hope they work as well on me. I am thinking the Megabotanicals are really going to help my digestion. Along with the fact that I have pretty much stopped drinking soda (my arch nemesis) I am hoping beyond hope that this helps my stomach. That and I am going to start juicing! I should go to the doctor but I have been and the "treatment" just was stupid to me.

 So here's to trying new things! I think I am finally ready for bed!

Make Today Awesome

That is what the little sign on my wall says right now. I have been so down in the dumps and feeling pretty crummy. Everything has just turned upside down and i'm still adjusting I guess. So today I am trying to change that. I figure even though I am down for the count until my neck and back heal, America shouldn't lose everything we have worked for. So today we start our groundwork. I also ordered some Buck clinic dvd's to study. I am looking forward to that. So here's to being positive and looking forward.

Well there goes all my plans

Sigh.... Everything I have planned for the year is now caput for the moment. I was involved in a fairly bad car accident earlier this week. My car has a couple grand worth of damage if it doesn't end up totaled. I have soft tissue damage in my neck as well as strained muscles in my back. I have to be really super careful. One wrong hit could cause nerve damage. With that said, I cannot ride for a while. My mom is begging me to stop jumping and to be honest I am seriously thinking of making a discipline change. I love dressage and would love to delve deeper into that. But that is not happening any time soon. Sigh, I had such high hopes. I am just having a pity party for myself. I figure until I can ride we will work on ground work. I might have a friend get on him some for me. On top of all of this, as if it's. Ot enough, my kitty has to have surgery to get bladder stones removed. We could all have good thoughts for better things our way.