It's the end of the year and i'm feeling nostalgic

So I have not been very good at keeping this thing updated with our progress. I blame school :) Damn education!

Anywho, my goal for next year is to update much more frequently. I have a feeling 2013 will be the year of progress. We are right on the cusp of reaching my first goal of being able to canter jumps again. Right there. Once I figure out what to do with this bit of PTSD I have acquired, we will be there. Though, I would like to mention that in my last lesson I made a huge leap over my fear for the first time ever. I started having a panic attack and somehow managed to push myself through it quite quickly and move on.

Back story: I was doing some gymnastics. First feat of the day was that I got over every jump the first time without any mental run outs. After going through the set a couple times, something triggered my anxiety and I had an attack. I was so frustrated because I had gotten so far already that day. He was being a rockstar. A little fast on the exit but wonderful. Picking  his feet up great. He loves gymnastics. He really has to use his body for it. And then BAM panic attack. I was so angry. I just screamed a profanity. Patted him and told him he was a good boy and forced myself to do it and I DID! holy crap! It was awesome!!!! It's the first time I have ever been able to make myself do something without physically becoming unable.

So we are getting there. 2013 is a new year full of new adventures!

I hope everyone has a great New Year and had great holidays!

Derp says Happy Holidays!