::punches self in face::

I am not sure why, but I keep letting myself fall apart. It's like I can't handle any one thing in my life. I am eating horribly. I am not taking my vitamins. I have not been exercising. I didn't even go see America once this weekend. Though I have other reasons for that. It just makes me feel like a horrible mom. I haven't been helping much around the apartment, luckily Matt hasn't kicked my ass about that yet. I don't take care of myself. I have gotten way behind on my school...AGAIN. And I have no excuse whatsoever. I don't even know how I passed that Mystics class, probably because the work I did turn in kicked ass. But just think of how much better of a grade I would have gotten had I actually applied myself. He was not a difficult teacher, I was just a horrible student.

I don't know what my deal is. I need to get the fuck over it though. That I do know for sure.